He is cheating

I don't know what to do or say I Jus can't help it, I can't forgive My husband for cheating and lying to me, I try to let go But I just can't.

We have been married for 5 years and for 4 of those years He has been lying and cheating. I feel the cheating is even better than lying because even If you catch him red handed in his lies He will always lie to cover it, I have hated him, I can't get to love him again, I really want out of this marriage.

Some months back I asked him to give me money for a cream $10 He told me He had no money, He never has money for me, He leaves me for 2 weeks in the name of work yet He is always broke.

Some weeks back I found out He had over 20 thousand dollars in his account and uses a phone of $2000 which I didn't know about, He hides it all from me and the phone is for chatting and flirting.
I have asked him several times If He had another phone yet He has denied severally. I even saw the phone sometime ago in his car and He said a friend must have forgotten it.

How I found out all this things was when He was arrested on his way back from the club with his girlfriend and friends on a day He was supposedly to be out of town. infact lets Not talk about his friends because they are assholes. They come to My house, eat My food, praise me yet they know their friend is cheating sometimes I wish I poisoned their food.
So as I was saying when they were arrested one of the girls with them had a gun so the case was serious and He was asked to call his family hmmm and that was How all got exposed. Am sure there is more He is hiding But I don't want to know, I don't care If He is changed But He doesn't deserve me and am going for divorce. He is telling me He is repented and that He loves me But I can't forgive the lies or rather I can't forget them, when I see his face all I see is the face of a liar, I can't let it go If you can help me please do because the hatred am feeling for him is transferring to other men.

Me: this is the story of a girl that calls me her mentor, am speechless and shocked at the rate people lie and deceive the ones they claim they love, as you can see in this story it took just one day for all his lies to be exposed and that is How life is: they say everyday for the thief and one day for the owner of the house. Nothing can be hidden under the sun straighten your part My friend.
The best advice I can give to anyone in her position is leave before the hatred get worst and leads you to do something you will regret.

Life is too short to hang around people that cause you pain and disrespects you.
If He has changed Good But I strongly believe you need separation to find yourself again because I know the emotional trauma you are going through. Trust me I've been there.

Leave, rebuild yourself, renew your mind, you can't continue to live with anger, anger births pain and hate, life is beautiful and so are you.
you deserve the best